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Sinan M. Dira
Artist | Student | Varied
Malaysia
Don't shoot for the stars, because gravity will pull you down, moron.

I am an INTP brainiac with a balanced brain dominance. Got it?

I'm a varied artist, but have recently been focusing on photography around my current residence, Kuala Lumpur. If you have any commercial or collaborative projects for me, poke right away!

If you're a local gamer or are obsessed with existential philosophy, then you can't miss talking to me either!

私の名前はSinanです。日本語を勉強して、言語交換をしたいです。
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Love is a standard human drug, and I have wanted my dose ever since I was a teenager. Not to say that I can't live without it. In fact, some of the greatest days of my life were days when I was totally alone, making productivity breakthroughs related to my hobbies and ambitions. However, sharing things from time to time, even if an individual is more accustomed to solitude, adds a great joy to life, just because our minds are hard-wired in a way that loves to be understood and appreciated.

I have spent all of my life in Saudi doing my hobbies alone, with the assumption that things would change once I come to Malaysia, and they did. However, the change was trivial, due to hobby groups being much prevalent, although I have then again run into a serious issue of racism. I have been pondering this matter over months and months, and racism is the grand result that all conclusions lead to. You see, friendly Malaysians do exist, but they are few. A cultural barrier does exist, but I very rarely get far enough to experience it. The reason for the latter issue is that most people avoid the building blocks of human relationships; the initial friendly talk that you begin with your classmate, colleague, or with a stranger at the cashier queue or in an elevator. These building blocks do not exist, because people avoid eye contact, and never initiate talk. When I do initiate, whether it was necessary or not, no matter how appropriate it is, it ends immediately, because it's obviously a burden to the other side and they don't want to pour any effort into it.

Hilariously enough, my recent backpacking trip has proven that the same person who is invisible to Malaysians is a splendid and fun conversationalist for white people (who are drastically more open-minded), not to mention that I also boast a very average look with a body growing more and more athletic. In a month of backpacking, I have made as much social achievement as I have made in two years that I spent studying with locals while scarcely attending external social events. I met many people with whom I've spent great times and I am still actively in touch with many of them. The difference is so drastic that I have never scored a date in Kuala Lumpur, while I have found myself repeatedly going out with girls in a very spontaneous manner during the trip. Not only have I never had a love life in Kuala Lumpur, but I have also been in an exclusively-Malay classroom that completely disregarded my existence and have not even let me into their Facebook help group. Welp.

Look at the difference!

Of course, being an outcast doesn't kill you, but it kills most of the purpose of leaving my home country. Malaysia is the farthest I could get from the damned Middle East (due to financial and familial restrictions), and one of the principal things that the circumstances denied me back home was having a social life and a LOVE life, which could have easily changed in Malaysia if not for the racism of locals.

Call me a rationalizer or a pussy, it's your choice, but it's also my choice whether to continue beating a dead horse or not.

Solitude alone I can take, but I can't take the prejudice the other person has in nearly every single interaction we have, which constitutes a near total impossibility of establishing any form of meaningful communication even when most appropriate.

Racism is not fun!

It's time to move on.

  • Mood: Not Impressed
  • Listening to: Oh Holy Night Cover by Serena Onasis
  • Eating: Chocolate
  • Drinking: Water

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Love is a standard human drug, and I have wanted my dose ever since I was a teenager. Not to say that I can't live without it. In fact, some of the greatest days of my life were days when I was totally alone, making productivity breakthroughs related to my hobbies and ambitions. However, sharing things from time to time, even if an individual is more accustomed to solitude, adds a great joy to life, just because our minds are hard-wired in a way that loves to be understood and appreciated.

I have spent all of my life in Saudi doing my hobbies alone, with the assumption that things would change once I come to Malaysia, and they did. However, the change was trivial, due to hobby groups being much prevalent, although I have then again run into a serious issue of racism. I have been pondering this matter over months and months, and racism is the grand result that all conclusions lead to. You see, friendly Malaysians do exist, but they are few. A cultural barrier does exist, but I very rarely get far enough to experience it. The reason for the latter issue is that most people avoid the building blocks of human relationships; the initial friendly talk that you begin with your classmate, colleague, or with a stranger at the cashier queue or in an elevator. These building blocks do not exist, because people avoid eye contact, and never initiate talk. When I do initiate, whether it was necessary or not, no matter how appropriate it is, it ends immediately, because it's obviously a burden to the other side and they don't want to pour any effort into it.

Hilariously enough, my recent backpacking trip has proven that the same person who is invisible to Malaysians is a splendid and fun conversationalist for white people (who are drastically more open-minded), not to mention that I also boast a very average look with a body growing more and more athletic. In a month of backpacking, I have made as much social achievement as I have made in two years that I spent studying with locals while scarcely attending external social events. I met many people with whom I've spent great times and I am still actively in touch with many of them. The difference is so drastic that I have never scored a date in Kuala Lumpur, while I have found myself repeatedly going out with girls in a very spontaneous manner during the trip. Not only have I never had a love life in Kuala Lumpur, but I have also been in an exclusively-Malay classroom that completely disregarded my existence and have not even let me into their Facebook help group. Welp.

Look at the difference!

Of course, being an outcast doesn't kill you, but it kills most of the purpose of leaving my home country. Malaysia is the farthest I could get from the damned Middle East (due to financial and familial restrictions), and one of the principal things that the circumstances denied me back home was having a social life and a LOVE life, which could have easily changed in Malaysia if not for the racism of locals.

Call me a rationalizer or a pussy, it's your choice, but it's also my choice whether to continue beating a dead horse or not.

Solitude alone I can take, but I can't take the prejudice the other person has in nearly every single interaction we have, which constitutes a near total impossibility of establishing any form of meaningful communication even when most appropriate.

Racism is not fun!

It's time to move on.

  • Mood: Not Impressed
  • Listening to: Oh Holy Night Cover by Serena Onasis
  • Eating: Chocolate
  • Drinking: Water

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